This is my brain…

No, don’t worry. There’s no semi-weird semi-breakfast commercial on the way. I’ve just had so much going through my mind that keeping track of simple things, like where my friends are or where they will be this weekend or what time it is, has become a lot harder to do. I know a lot of reasons why, but you obviously don’t, so let’s take a look.

I’ll still kind of recuperating from the news last Wednesday. I found out that I did not get the internship in Germany for the summer, that I was one of nine hundred plus who didn’t, that I will be staying in Michigan this summer. Not a big deal, but I just keep thinking back to what I could have done differently or better in both my past two years at State, in the application, in the cover letters, in all of the extra things I needed to complete. I was stressed when I was filling those out, and maybe they saw that stress?

My Biology group is down to two people, my good partner and I. We can handle stuff fine, but the act of actually losing the third person was ridiculous. I mean, needing the two LAs, the professor, the entire other group, a few random people, and an hour and a half of our time to drop a person was just too much. Way too dramatic, but I am glad that I am finally more in control of my grade. I would like to raise my GPA, not have it decimated by an anchor in a research lab.

Speaking of anchors and sinking ships, half of my mental capacity has been relegated to trying to figure out women. I know what you’re thinking: you’ll need a couple brains and a lifetime or two to figure that one out. But you see, I’m not even figuring out the entire female psyche, but only a small portion: the definition of a friend. Woah! I mean, if she acts like your average friend sometimes and like your above-average friend the other times, what is that? A 1.5 friend? A slightly-above-average friend? Can friendships even be averaged out like that?

I don’t know. Believe it or not, I’ve tried to talk to her about this multiple times, but every time I get really nervous and kind of clam up and talk about something else. You have no idea how many times I’ve asked her to talk, then we just talk about everything but that. Yes, I still want to be friends with her, and no I do not want to date her, but friends still do what we’ve done while being friends, and we’ve gone through that stage before, but come on. I’d like a little solidity in a definition, right?

Cryptic enough for you? I tried to make it more intelligible than the synapse firings in my cerebral cortex.

The Last Two Months

With Spring Break firmly in the past and the endorphins from the six overtime Syracuse/UConn game finally going away, I find myself with just two short months until my summer vacation. Where exactly do I stand with everything, from school to work to life?

School: I am no longer worried about Biology, having just got my grades back from my last exam. I think that having a 95.9% or whatever it was overall will be a great cushion or staging ground to end that class with a 3.5 or hopefully a 4.0. Linear Algebra is not bad at all, especially since I can drop three homework assignments and an exam. Honestly, once I have ten homework assignments in the bag that are good scores, I’m not going to do any more. Why bother? Actually, I’ll probably do all of the homewokrs and take all three exams (only two left), just because that’s who I am. Physics lab is ridiculous, but I finally got a good grade on my lab report! Astronomy/Astrophysics will be fine as long as I get all of my observing stuff done, which might be a little tough without a car. Physics is going fine, it’s just the exams and homework are ridiculous, but I heard that there’s a big curve at the end. I have my next exam for that on friday, which I should be fine for.

Work: I haven’t heard back from my summer internship prospect yet. I checked my personal information, and the letter is being sent to my home address instead of my dorm. This worries me only because it might have already arrived and gotten thrown out or lost. I e-mailed the agency about this, and to quell my own insecurities about it. If I don’t get it this summer, I’m just going to apply next year, plus I have my Mathnasium fall back. For ATT, we’re working on revising all of our articles (and scratch-write some new ones), so I’ve been heavily involved in that. As for next year, I haven’t gotten my letters yet, but I know that I have the math job.

Life: I’m doing fine. I like all of my friends, and I try to hang out with them, but sometimes it doesn’t happen. What can you do, fail school? NO! It’s fine, since I try to see them every once in a while, even if it’s only for a short amount of time. 40k stuff is going good… maybe? I left my army at home so that I will just work on the hobby side (plus ATT). I started working on a special project between another moderator and I, which will be a lot of fun. Past that, just finishing my army then starting a new army (a showcase one… tricky!).

Not that bad, right? Things are going good, if I do say so myself.

Spring Break 2009

Since basically yesterday, I’ve been on Spring Break. While yes, I do still have a Biology lab and three more classes on Friday, I only have to attend them. I have no exams, no homework, no quizzes, nothing to worry about. Today I played Left 4 Dead and Call of Duty, mostly because I have almost nothing else to do.

Of course, over Spring Break I’ll be doing work. I have an exam (or two… I’m not sure) the week I get back, I have some homework I need to do, I need to do some more research for Biology, and probably some more things I’m not remembering right now. I guess it is a good thing that I’m not going anywhere over break.

I do know that I’ll get stir-crazy, so I’ve already planned some stuff to do while I’m home. While none of it is guaranteed, aside from playing a ton of guitar all day and eating a lot of food, I should be able to distract myself enough to not drive myself crazy before school.

I may even work on my novel some more! Today I wrote another six-ten pages, bringing the total up to 123-ish.